Today I noticed how out-of-touch with the world I’ve gotten. I sometimes just sit in front of my computer and don’t even think about doing anything productive, I end up watching YouTube and just consume product. I don’t even know what I am typing anymore because I don’t even have to consciously type, it’s just something I do by thinking about it. There are times where I feel like a brainless monkey, I’ve lost all my values, everything that makes me special, and I don’t feel like I’m in my body anymore. I feel like I’m outside, somewhere, but meaningless. I don’t understand anymore, I am boring, I just look at stuff but I don’t think about it. I go outside but I don’t feel the weather, the world, it’s all just artificial.